I just need to state here upfront I am by no means deeply involved in any ritual magick or any other form of esoteric wisdom.

What I am is more of a fascinated researcher. So I will not pretend I have any real deep first-hand knowledge on this subject. But I have a few questions that seem to recur more and more as I am digging along. And I need guidance.

You see, I have reached a point where I don't know what to believe anymore.

From the start of my investigations I was sure that there must be some hidden truth, something profoundly real about the hidden mysteries or magick in general, but lately I have been stumbling in the dark.

I am trying to keep away from how to books, since I am only interested in historical treatisies and facts - if possible.

Most books seem to deal with the symbols and philosophies instead of reality. There seem to be great faith placed on unseen unknowable forces at work through symbols and signs. But many of these thoughts are no less scientific and out-of-this-world than the wave state of a electron. If Agrippa was thrown into our world today he would drop his wand and start studying physics. Don't you think? Engineers and physicists seem to be the real masters of nature.

David copperfield used a number of engineers and all sorts of scientists to bring most of his ideas to reality. But what if social insitutions used these same principles to fool thousands, and even millions of people?

If I considder magick as a world of make-believe then the only way to explain certain phenomena in the world, past and present, is that it's all based on science, or rudimentary science. Which leaves me to the conclusion that the old Egyptians were superstitious scientists that even used some of there mundane enginering and chemical feats to impress the people with some kind of illusion of life and matter.  And even today I have to take into account that the church (especially the catholic) use the superstitous mind of people to lure them into the older mysterie schools. So they are in fact using stage magician tricks on larger scale to rally people together in a hypnotic and emosionally charged atmosphere. This is a scary thought.

Whatever anyone thinks of catholics, they are as deeply involved in the esoteric and mysteries as is many occult groups. In fact, it would not be so strange to insitiate someone into the arcane through catholic teachings!

Since many of the old magicians and alchemists were in fact the forerunners of science, is it not a valid to imply that magick is a deceiving form of science. It is where science is used to falsify reality and create illusions whereby people are politically or spiriually misguided (I am not implying from a christian perspective but from a situation where the state is backed up by the church). As the Egyptians have done, or the Babylonians or even today?


I have found no substanial evidence for real magick today except maybe the Nigerian preacher TB Joshua. He is no Christian and I am rather inclined to believe the statements that he is very true to his ancestor and water (crocodile) spirit worship. But I could be wrong and only a personal inquiry might cast more light on the real facts. If he is real then it means I am missing something profoundly deep and real. That science is not the new magick and that demons are not a mind inflicted state but a real spiritual medium!


What I am hoping from anyone here is a guide toward any researcher who has coverded this field substantially. Or maybe a guideline as to authors who are respected practitioners of their craft. I have my suspicions of Crowley because of the notoriety of his public image. I found Blavatsky's (Secret Doctrine) correlation and outline between wisdom schools' deeper philosphies, fascinating  although a little tedious at times. M.P. Hall's work, although he was really knowledgeable has no real value except as reference.


Could the serpent in fact be the symbolic of something real, a secret wisdom that scientists have reaped great benefits from through history. Maybe one could even go so far as to imply that Einstein, being a very zealos Sionist, could have been more knowledgable about the Kabbalah than suspected?  As was Newton when he derrived his celestial clockwork model from deep esoteric studies? Or Nostradamus could have had for his very accurate diagnosis and success rate?

Could this universal serpent be the symbolic form of a wisdom where some of the greatest minds in history have tapped into? A force beyond nature that reveals the secrets of the mundane reality - of the demiurge?

Thank you for your time.