No_1 wrote: ↑Fri Nov 13, 2020 7:15 am
I just want to forget and start fresh.
Don't we all want such thing at least once
in a while.
I've been trying to explain you,
in as much detail as possible, as simply as I could that what you are asking is not really possible, or not really available.
The ending part is easy, we can end it all like flip of a switch. And people who unfortunately couldn't take
the hardships any longer been opting for that option since
the dawn of times, far too many times.
The second part of your plan is where it all falls apart. You can't just get another fresh start on demand, matching your unrealistic expectations. You can't get
the same vessel
in the same place, same family, same timeline, dealing with
the same challenges, and automatically have life with no challenges and suffering simply by avoiding few holes down
the road, few mistakes. You can't magically transfer your present experiences and knowledge
in it's entirety to your new self, even if you could change one thing, that thing would put you on another path with completely new challenges and all your cheat list is invalid again, and then what? Restart again? If it all would be that easy, we all would be doing that. Who wouldn't?
I started my life
in a bottom of
the barrel, grew up
in poverty, with no prospects, a lifetime of beating, physical, emotional and mental abuse. And almost 40 years later I didn't crawl very far from where I started. My life and vessel is a dumpster dive find at most. It's still an order of magnitude better than
the existence I had before this. Nonetheless I work on trying to use whatever is given to me to improve my future, distant future, to get
the most out of what I have.
In various ways. Like, I cannot transfer my memories, knowledge to my future self
in it's entirety. But we are able to record a kind of "core experiences" on to our spirit, soul, like layers of emotional sediment. Through habits, through repeated actions. For example, if I look back I did some mistake by having some opportunity and not taking it out of fear, it's not enough to just tell my self "ok,
in next life I'll be much more bold and just go for it, without freezing and contemplating if I should or should not" - that doesn't work, not good enough, does not count.
The only way to correct your self, is to actually act differently on next given opportunity, and it's not even enough to just wait for
the next opportunity, one should be actively looking for opportunities or even creating them to correct one's behaviour through an actual act, and not even just once. Only when behaviour patterns becomes second nature, that often get transferred
in some way. Then
in next life your future you, no matter what you start with, however shitty set of card you get, you'd have some inherent skills to turn
the tables to your favour. Those past experience won't come to your future you as visual and clear as we consider "memories to be", but more like a gut feeling, an attitude, a certain nature of self, an instinct, but his/hers actions and choices
in certain "familiar" situations will be almost instinctive.
In other words, you train and program your future self now by continuously living, no one else will give you already pre-trained, beefed-up, maxed-out vessel. And on top of that you can't become a good fighter by avoiding fights, both literally and figuratively. You can't learn to avoid mistakes by not making them. It's just
the way nature works, because that's simply
the laws of (meta)physics that govern this universe. And it's been so for thousands of years, and we only been able to get better, smarter, faster, stronger etc, by living, by making mistakes, trying and failing, again and again, countless of lifetimes. And
the longer I can live,
the more mistakes I can make,
the better, because actual experience is what matters, both good and bad. It's just when we start to dwell on
the bad ones for too long, and start slowly drowning
in regret, then it's bad, because if we die
in such state, it can take a while to get up. It's far easier to get over, to force your self over all kinds of emotional burdens while we have physical body, many times easier. Emotional burdens are super heavy when you don't have your "exoskeleton of flesh" to help you lift. It can really fuck us up for a very long time, making us crawl eternally begging for help, stuck
in some unpleasant places and states. There is reasons pretty much all cultures around
the world have all kinds of complex final rites, burial ceremonies and so on.
Someday many generations later, our understanding of (meta)physics and all our technologies will advance far enough, where perhaps we finally will be able to find some hack or crack to bend
the rules of nature and what's possible may get a little close to what you are dreaming about. We are not there yet, or anywhere near that,
the last time I checked. So
the old-school way is all we have for now, I'm afraid.
Summary: I can't help you, because to
the best of my knowledge, what you seek is not possible, and to
the best of my knowledge, I'm very certain, any attempt of such thing will give you
the exact opposite outcome of what you expect.