A return
Posted: Mon Feb 15, 2010 11:49 am
Greetings all,
I am a 28yo male from scotland who used to be a member of occult forums a long while ago but could never find a local group of occult practitioners to learn from. I have dabbled in occult arts a little in the past but never really had the time to commit to it with all of life's other distractions. I'm returning now, a little older and hopefully a little wiser. I certainly know a lot more about myself than I did then, mostly things I didn't want to know but that's the way it goes sometimes.
My stumbling block has always been skepticism, I find myself wanting to believe in the occult more than I actually do if that makes any sense to you? I have performed no rite or ritual which has made me think "yes, this works, this is demanding of further study", I feel loathed to dedicate years of my life to something when I can see no evidence that I will ever get a result.
I suppose I am here to try and find that spark I need, that one communication with a spirit or tangible result that will give me the fire to dedicate my time to further reasearch. I am fully expecting many of you to think that I am looking at this the wrong way, there is a part of me that thinks the same but that is who I am for better or worse.
Thank you for reading this, I hope to become an active member of the community.
Be well
Eisen
I am a 28yo male from scotland who used to be a member of occult forums a long while ago but could never find a local group of occult practitioners to learn from. I have dabbled in occult arts a little in the past but never really had the time to commit to it with all of life's other distractions. I'm returning now, a little older and hopefully a little wiser. I certainly know a lot more about myself than I did then, mostly things I didn't want to know but that's the way it goes sometimes.
My stumbling block has always been skepticism, I find myself wanting to believe in the occult more than I actually do if that makes any sense to you? I have performed no rite or ritual which has made me think "yes, this works, this is demanding of further study", I feel loathed to dedicate years of my life to something when I can see no evidence that I will ever get a result.
I suppose I am here to try and find that spark I need, that one communication with a spirit or tangible result that will give me the fire to dedicate my time to further reasearch. I am fully expecting many of you to think that I am looking at this the wrong way, there is a part of me that thinks the same but that is who I am for better or worse.
Thank you for reading this, I hope to become an active member of the community.
Be well
Eisen