Original post: zeroflye
Something strange has happened to me recently.
I'm a male, and a few nights ago i got high (marijuana), and began thinking of sexual things, then I get the idea of how it would feel to experience a female orgasm, so i visualize myself as a female. My groin area started feeling weird, and almost like i was peeing (i wasnt). and big pressure and heat around there as well. nothing in my penis. It was intense, and very pleasurable.
So, i come out of it by the next morning. But, i still feel a strange feeling in that area, and its getting more noticable by the day. My orgasms have also changed,
and feel more like an implosion/wet/twitching even tho nothing is there.
A "flood gates" type of feeling. i really dont know, but i've never felt things like this before. So Whats going on with me? It feels like every time i masturbate i can feel it more clearly, and it grows somehow.
It really feels like i have a vagina.
Did i pull these energies in while in the high?
Can the astral body take a different form, allowing the physical to feel it?
And how do i stop this..it hasnt gone away.
the orgasms are great and keep getting better but i'm afraid this could mess me up in some way...
any help or comments are appreciated.
i know its a strange subject.
Female astral body or focused energies?
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Original post: K.A. Malik
Yes, it is entirely possible to skew your sensations such that you feel female even in your orgasms, and by its very nature your astral body can be molded to whatever you want it to be. Mentally I am androgynous, and have spent a great deal of time exploring the feeling of being the opposite gender, though my sensations haven't been the same as you've described; My work is backed up with experience in sharing sensory input with a real female. I find it very useful in balancing out my mental need to not have a strong sexual identity, and it is a fine exercise in shapeshifting, a process similar to invocation and with similar uses.
If you want to remasculinitize (*coin*) your orgasms, focus on pleasuring your penis and in your fantasies, be a guy.
Yes, it is entirely possible to skew your sensations such that you feel female even in your orgasms, and by its very nature your astral body can be molded to whatever you want it to be. Mentally I am androgynous, and have spent a great deal of time exploring the feeling of being the opposite gender, though my sensations haven't been the same as you've described; My work is backed up with experience in sharing sensory input with a real female. I find it very useful in balancing out my mental need to not have a strong sexual identity, and it is a fine exercise in shapeshifting, a process similar to invocation and with similar uses.
If you want to remasculinitize (*coin*) your orgasms, focus on pleasuring your penis and in your fantasies, be a guy.
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Original post: cryptobliss
Very interesting. I think Dion Fortune said that the astral body of a being was of the opposite gender, but I didn't totally understand her meaning. Regardless, Its quite possible to be a woman on the astral, of this I am sure. If don't feel as though you are an astral woman trapped in a mans body, then what you are probably experienced is called the "Anima". The anima is the feminine side of the male, which lays hidden, and is represented in our visions as our "soulmate" sometimes or a priestess of love. The ultimate truth of the anima though is that she is within us though, she represents our latent feminine power, as the "Animus" does for a woman. It is said that a good mage is beyond male and female energies, but taps both to use in accordance with will.
Very interesting. I think Dion Fortune said that the astral body of a being was of the opposite gender, but I didn't totally understand her meaning. Regardless, Its quite possible to be a woman on the astral, of this I am sure. If don't feel as though you are an astral woman trapped in a mans body, then what you are probably experienced is called the "Anima". The anima is the feminine side of the male, which lays hidden, and is represented in our visions as our "soulmate" sometimes or a priestess of love. The ultimate truth of the anima though is that she is within us though, she represents our latent feminine power, as the "Animus" does for a woman. It is said that a good mage is beyond male and female energies, but taps both to use in accordance with will.
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Original post: Chahel
[QUOTE=zeroflye]Did i pull these energies in while in the high?
Can the astral body take a different form, allowing the physical to feel it?
And how do i stop this..it hasnt gone away.
the orgasms are great and keep getting better but i'm afraid this could mess me up in some way...
any help or comments are appreciated.
i know its a strange subject.[/QUOTE]
Perhaps being high made you more receptive and your visualization became more acute because of it. Our other bodies can take different forms. Why do you want it to stop if it is pleasurable? Maybe I'm lacking imagination, but I think that it can only make you a more aware lover. K.A. Malik's advice to imagine yourself as a guy in your fantasies is sound. It is just the other side of what you did. It's not a strange subject, it's an interesting subject!
[QUOTE=zeroflye]Did i pull these energies in while in the high?
Can the astral body take a different form, allowing the physical to feel it?
And how do i stop this..it hasnt gone away.
the orgasms are great and keep getting better but i'm afraid this could mess me up in some way...
any help or comments are appreciated.
i know its a strange subject.[/QUOTE]
Perhaps being high made you more receptive and your visualization became more acute because of it. Our other bodies can take different forms. Why do you want it to stop if it is pleasurable? Maybe I'm lacking imagination, but I think that it can only make you a more aware lover. K.A. Malik's advice to imagine yourself as a guy in your fantasies is sound. It is just the other side of what you did. It's not a strange subject, it's an interesting subject!
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Original post: vulnera
while in the fetal stage all humans have identical "sex-organ buds".
both male and female reproductive organs are produced from these buds, depending on hormone levels and other factors... imo it is entirely within reason to conclude that these "cross-gender" sensations are quite normal. every man out there has a vagina! you can see evidence of where it fused on the testes. every woman has a penis, just take a close look at her clit next time youre down there! sorry to freak anyone out, but its the troof.
while in the fetal stage all humans have identical "sex-organ buds".
both male and female reproductive organs are produced from these buds, depending on hormone levels and other factors... imo it is entirely within reason to conclude that these "cross-gender" sensations are quite normal. every man out there has a vagina! you can see evidence of where it fused on the testes. every woman has a penis, just take a close look at her clit next time youre down there! sorry to freak anyone out, but its the troof.