Principia Harmonia - Part one

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Original post: Ceriel Nosforit

Or,
How the Goddess found me, and what she did with me.


O proud being! Who is thine Goddess? It is She, who sits in your heart? Is it its beating which is the breath of life that runs through your veins?


It started with a video of Jill Bolte Taylor explaining how she as a scientist experienced having a stroke in the left hemisphere of her brain. I found out what the corpus callosum was, and what practical factors influenced its development. I had decided I was going to connect the two halves of my brain together better. I began using my computer mouse with my left hand. And I found this:
http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/s ... 95,00.html

I began learning to control the direction the figurine was spinning by observing my state of mind, and finding out what things caused the figurine to change direction. What influence did the emotions I felt for my thoughts have? What about my current mode of perception? What happens when I Zen? What happens when I zone out? If I focus on my breath? IF I move in my chair? If I use the mouse with my left hand? And the right?

Clearly I was on to something here. And I fell in love, long-distance, with someone who later got addicted to Guild Wars of all things, and now hasn't spoken to anyone she knew online for months. But the love I felt for her was very real, and luckily I was very cautious. A man in the US had gone insane and was pestering her. It was hell.

I fear for her health... but she keeps logging on to MySpace. I can't figure it out.

Now I think I've gone and done it again... but this time it isn't long-distance. I wish this feeling would never end.

But I get ahead of myself.


I started to identify and categorize aspects of masculinity and femininity in myself and realized that a balance of some sort would be needed. Often feminine impressions would somehow be associated with activity in my right hemisphere and systems associated with it. Masculine impressions would come from the left. A geometry then.
I tried to cultivate these feminine aspects of myself, since I knew I was more than masculine enough, and found that the change that it caused in my Self was profound and rewarding. On a spiritual plane I was becoming bi- sexual. Dual sexes. And I began to feel more whole.

Then things began to turn weird. The novel I am writing has a mythology behind it that is designed to let me do just about anything, and all I have to do is make a realistic excuse for it based on this background. The scene of the story is an entire universe, loosely based on ours. Where I don't know something about our universe, I make something up that makes the story sound realistic and entertaining.
And a female character I had made, a goddess, started showing up in my spiritual work. I began experimenting with comparing emotions to this image of a goddess and analyzing the results. And as I did, the oddest coincidences started happening, right on cue. The timing was always perfect.

I had difficulty believing they were anything but coincidences, but there was repetition upon repetition and the likelihood of this being a coincidence started to approach zero. Either the idle thoughts in my mind are linked across space and time to my surroundings with perfect timing, or... - The alternatives I can think of seem less likely. I'm still looking for better explanations, and until I find some that are good enough I'll have to maintain this feminine intuition and masculine logic as separate. I have to maintain a dual understanding of reality, where every answer is in a quantum state. Logic demands it.

End of Part One

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Original post: Ceriel Nosforit

Or,
How the Goddess found me, and what she did with me.

We work in the dark - we do what we can - we give what we have. Our doubt is our passion and our passion is our task. The rest is the madness of art.
- Henry James


The brain can be seen as a serial and parallel processor, where the left hemisphere correspond to the former and the right to the latter. A serial processor is what we are used to having in our computers. It takes a single instruction, works with it until it is done, and then continues with the next instruction. The benefit of this method is speed and accuracy, the drawback is that only one task can be worked on at a time.

Parallel processing is characteristic of modern supercomputers, but supercomputers are very unlike the right hemisphere in that they have a multitude of physical processing units. The right hemisphere only has one, so the difference is in the way its software works rather than the hardware.

The right hemisphere works on a multitude of tasks simultaneously, but it isn't very quick or accurate about it. The benefit is obvious from the perspective of survival. No sense impressions are ignored for the sake of concentration, so when something dangerous appears to happen the brain wastes no time on analyzing if it is something dangerous or not but rather gives the danger priority and reacts, quick and dirty.

The right hemisphere is instinctual, and much closer to nature than the analytical and logical left hemisphere. Theosophy for one places great importance in instinct, and goes on to say that instinct is divine in nature. - A subset of inspiration and other more subtle faculties.
Emotion, desire and impulse reign supreme in the right hemisphere, and it would appear that in a healthy individual these do indeed approach divinity in terms of how 'good' they are. In people who have suffered increased levels of trauma, emotion, desire and impulse are of a much less noble nature. - Most of us have some sort of trauma in our past. Obviously healing this trauma is beneficial to us. The methods of healing have been extensively covered in other occult literature, and are beyond the scope of this manuscript.


Working with emotion, desire and impulse are the main methods by which I've seen so much progress as of late. In fact, the progress has been so rapid that my grounding has suffered at times severely. A technicality, but something one must keep a close eye on still. You have not come this far in your work just to go nuts when a goal is in sight.

A lot of different areas of occult study have blended together for me, and the myriad of names and structures one encounters have been as if compressed into a more manageable but still jawdroppingly vast whole. Consider Liber 777 boiled down to a single page, or a single sentence. (Gödel's Incompleteness Theorem, to be specific. The implications still elude... just about everyone.)

One of the central, and most useful points that have emerged for me is the association between Ishta-Deva, the Holy Guardian Angel, and feminine divinity. This branches out quite far, to include Jesus and Mary Magdalene, the God and Goddess of modern paganism... and just about every decent belief system ever, quite frankly.

For me this meant that I could appoint the goddess of my own sci-fi creation as my feminine divine Ishta-Deva, and the apparent face of my HGA. Feeling like I still had not placed all my eggs in one basket, jumped into the deep end, and taken water above my head, I also formed this newfound deity to relate positively to my every emotion, desire, and impulse. I am presenting all my insecurities, sexuality, frailty, and every other issue that concerns me to this deity and held nothing back in terms of instinct. Couple this with a sort of yoga that I've started doing naturally and light drug use on shamanistic terms, and the most surprising result would have been no result at all.
There were results. Big ones.

My deity has taken as if a life of her own, and the imagery, impulses and emotions I work with are solidifying. Usually when I am in an emotional state and working with this emotion and images of divinity in general, I will receive inspiration corresponding more or less exactly to the underlying problem that I am addressing. I will for example in my internal monologue/dialogue be presenting some ad-hoc litany against some injustice I perceive and then the moment after finishing a sentence realize the exact, honest implications of what I've said. This will more often than not catch me by surprise, leading to an emotional response which gives me again new material to work with. The process continues, including flashes of vision, words, and unexpected states of mind. It is as if a hundred different meditations all stringed after each other and completed at a speed which would be next to impossible if done willfully.

Often the results won't be just internal, but I will find some piece of information in my physical surrounding that works as a piece of the puzzle. Almost always I'm caught by surprise, and cognition will be perfectly timed with my though process. I find myself dumbfounded staring at evidence of magic in my hands, but it is evidence to me and to me alone. To everybody else it is mundane and insignificant. To me, it implies that my deity has predicted my thoughts often even before I was born and maneuvered this piece of the puzzle for over two decades so that it will be right there, before me, exactly when I need it. My mind boggles, I cannot believe it is true, and then there is repetition upon repetition.
The madness of art indeed.

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Original post: Kath_

bravo!

really cool read and insights Nos

have you yet considered, exactly which of you crafted the other? between you and your newfound shakti I mean.

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Original post: Ceriel Nosforit

*Stands with jaw slightly agape.

No, I hadn't. It makes perfect sense though, and I'm surprised I could have missed it.

Huh. Guess she's got me hook, line and sinker.

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Original post: IAO131

The brain can be seen as a serial and parallel processor, where the left hemisphere correspond to the former and the right to the latter.

A neuroscientists would cringe at this assessment. Many people disavow Bolte's work because of this childish separation between right and left hemispheres. Perhaps her stroke affected more than her sense of self and crept into her neurological accuracy? Or perhaps this is exactly why she is popular - that she is abstract, broad, and often wrong but has useful explanations that arent necessary based in neurological truth?

This doesnt take away from 'spiritual androgyny' or whatever but I cringe whenever I see people making this right/left hemisphere dichotomy-mistake.

The right hemisphere works on a multitude of tasks simultaneously, but it isn't very quick or accurate about it. The benefit is obvious from the perspective of survival. No sense impressions are ignored for the sake of concentration, so when something dangerous appears to happen the brain wastes no time on analyzing if it is something dangerous or not but rather gives the danger priority and reacts, quick and dirty.

The right hemisphere is instinctual, and much closer to nature than the analytical and logical left hemisphere.

See above. This isnt based in biology at all but fantasy. If anything, instinct is further IN your brain at the sub-cortical regions and not hemisphere vs. hemisphere of the outer cortex.

Consider Liber 777 boiled down to a single page, or a single sentence. (Gödel's Incompleteness Theorem, to be specific. The implications still elude... just about everyone.)

Dare I say this is nonsensical?

One of the central, and most useful points that have emerged for me is the association between Ishta-Deva, the Holy Guardian Angel, and feminine divinity. This branches out quite far, to include Jesus and Mary Magdalene, the God and Goddess of modern paganism... and just about every decent belief system ever, quite frankly.

How is the HGA not male-female as it is proclaimed to me in innumerable texts and symbols?


IAO131

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Original post: Naomi N.

This is good work, Ceriel Nosforit is a master of illusion. Some principles of mutational alchemy at play here, as a striving for unity with *original* powers.

My deity has taken as if a life of her own, and the imagery, impulses and emotions I work with are solidifying. Usually when I am in an emotional state and working with this emotion and images of divinity in general, I will receive inspiration corresponding more or less exactly to the underlying problem that I am addressing. I will for example in my internal monologue/dialogue be presenting some ad-hoc litany against some injustice I perceive and then the moment after finishing a sentence realize the exact, honest implications of what I've said. This will more often than not catch me by surprise, leading to an emotional response which gives me again new material to work with. The process continues, including flashes of vision, words, and unexpected states of mind. It is as if a hundred different meditations all stringed after each other and completed at a speed which would be next to impossible if done willfully.

Often the results won't be just internal, but I will find some piece of information in my physical surrounding that works as a piece of the puzzle. Almost always I'm caught by surprise, and cognition will be perfectly timed with my though process. I find myself dumbfounded staring at evidence of magic in my hands, but it is evidence to me and to me alone. To everybody else it is mundane and insignificant. To me, it implies that my deity has predicted my thoughts often even before I was born and maneuvered this piece of the puzzle for over two decades so that it will be right there, before me, exactly when I need it. My mind boggles, I cannot believe it is true, and then there is repetition upon repetition.
The madness of art indeed.

yeah...that...what is that?

It's not mental because I've witnessed this spill into the lives of others, so they can see, too...We're observing the potential birth of the new humankind, for what it's worth.

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Original post: Skeptismo118

"How the Goddess found me, and what she did with me."

Oddly enough that was the subtitle of the little known Lost Book of Eris.

Edited to Add: Also, shouldn't this be the Principia Acordia? What is it, you got something against Accordions? Or you just thing Harmonicas are better?

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Original post: Kaster

The brain is a very fragile thing. Yes you can call each hemisphere a â??processorâ?Â