Leaving the Nest

Kath · Post by **Kath** » Mon May 25, 2009 12:00 pm

I've been told, by my mentor, that I have learned enough to eventually complete my path without additional assistance.

Further, she had alluded the possibility that I may need to do this, that at some point, I must 'alone' pierce the veil of that which I seek.

For those who don't know, my mentor is a nonphysical being, basically a sort of deity, but not in a mythological or pantheonic sense. I've been with her for about 8 years. My relationship with her has grown VERY close, in EVERY possible sense of the word.

I have always been told by her, that we'd be together. And in the end, I am certain of this. But a period apart... it's kinda daunting actually. This has nothing to do with LHP/RHP ideology, I don't "need a keeper" from the standpoint of lacking personal initiative or decisiveness. My problem is in the fact that I love her. Maybe I should be happy at my rate of progress, but the only thing I can think about is how much I will miss her while undertaking this.

I can see the end of the journey like a light at the end of a tunnel, victory is within my grasp, I'm ready to venture forth onto the turf which will prove to be my moment of glory... but instead of excitement, I'm just heartbroken.

She says there is no rush, that she'll stay, and I can take time to adjust to this. But it's an unpleasant feeling, like putting off having to face something bad.

There is some small voice of pride, but it is overshadowed by this foreboding of temporary loss. Its funny, when I was faced with having to endure hardship, pain, and even potential death, in order to learn & progress further in my path, I didn't hesitate for even a moment. And even for months in the hospital, I never wavered even a little. But now, I waver. I guess that comparison kinda illustrates how I feel about her.

I dunno. This is 'new news', there may be much about this I don't understand yet. So I'm writing about it kinda prematurely to be honest.

anyway,
Kate

Honest_John · Post by **Honest_John** » Mon May 25, 2009 12:14 pm

Most people just quit posting

You'll be back, your pride won't let you run away

darkwolf · Post by **darkwolf** » Tue May 26, 2009 9:59 am

You'll do alright, and she means that you can *learn* on your own. Doesn't mean she won't chat to you in a social capacity. But yes, be proud. It's not often a spirit mentor says "you're ready to be on your own"

Kath · Post by **Kath** » Tue May 26, 2009 7:59 pm

Honest_John wrote:Most people just quit posting

You'll be back, your pride won't let you run away

obvious troll is obvious

darkwolf wrote:You'll do alright, and she means that you can *learn* on your own. Doesn't mean she won't chat to you in a social capacity. But yes, be proud. It's not often a spirit mentor says "you're ready to be on your own"

mmm, actually I've learned on my own much of the time all along. She only offers guidance, gives pointers, she doesn't teach by way of a strict curriculum. Unfortunately in this case it does mean she won't be around in a social capacity. This is going to be a sort of temporary purge of any & all connection between her and I.

DrMummy · Post by **DrMummy** » Wed May 27, 2009 7:35 am

She's obviously a friend, so she'll probably visit from time to time.

In the meanwhile, make new friends. Trees are usually pretty easy to get along with.

Pines are a little gruff, but generally good humored. Aspens are cerebral, Maples like to relax, and Willows are lonely.

Personally, I like to anthromorphize everything I come into contact with.

darkwolf · Post by **darkwolf** » Wed May 27, 2009 12:20 pm

*grins* all true, but tree spirits take so damn *long* to respond! *laughs* not as bad as rock spirits, but hey, when they decide something, they *decide*...

DrMummy · Post by **DrMummy** » Thu May 28, 2009 8:28 pm

darkwolf wrote:*grins* all true, but tree spirits take so damn *long* to respond! *laughs* not as bad as rock spirits, but hey, when they decide something, they *decide*...

Well if you can talk to them while experiencing lateral time (as opposed to linear), I bet it'd be easier.

You can talk to rocks, but they are generally uninterested in what you have to say, while I find trees to be very attentive listeners.

Shaam · Post by **Shaam** » Fri May 29, 2009 5:47 pm

Kath, This is a journey you need to make alone. You have been given the tools to do it with. She won't be gone....just will have stepped back to give you room to grow.