Heyo

[Methadone]

Hey! Well, I may seem like a faggot because there's two reasons I've joined this place. One of them is to keep on studying and trying out magick, I've got experience with enochian, divination, chaos magick and using runes... i was more likely born with this and did not chose to know any of it, however, I think that if I was born with knowledge this must mean something and I should perhaps pursue this way further. It may sound stupid but it's like I know a lot but I don't know it at the same time.

I can astral travel but I do not chose to actually do so, when I do so I can break havoc anywhere I chose, do anything I want and everything I do and seem to never be in control of it, which I think is a little bit dangerous. There's ''me'' who knows magic and is always represented by me in this sort of attitude of ''not giving a fuck'', not quite like evil, and then there's me in real life, whom doesn't know how to access all of this knowledge I seem to have within me.

Second reason for joining, although it may sound really shitty, it's because i wanna get someone back. The story is complex and I wont display it openly on the forums but I am willing to tell anybody about it on either PM's or any IM form. I'll specify also that I don't wanna get someone ''back'' to life, I want to get someone back with me, through the distance (they live accross the world now), thus why I'm choosing this method.

I don't have internet at home everyday, sometimes it doesn't work, I also forget to log in many days but I'll do my best to log once a week at least.

I'm pleased to meet ya all and I thank you for letting me be part of your community.

Edit: I forgot to add, I do not want to bind this person to me and that is not my intention so dont take me wrong on that regard!

[Nahemah]

Hello and welcome to the forum. [grin]

[dodaive]

Welcome Methadone, I think I have felt that kind of situation before [happy2]

[Madavascus]

Welcome, Methadone!

[akimbomoss]

I want to get someone back with me, through the distance (they live accross the world now), thus why I'm choosing this method.

[question] Does this have anything to do with a man who speaks spanish? I keep hearing "Hola!". Just a thought. It may not mean anything..

[Methadone]

He knows a bit Spanish, but I am the Spanish one to begin with. when we speak he likes saying ''Hola!'' instead of hi.

Thank you for having welcomed me tho I can assure you my situation is nothing like anything you could have heard before. As I said, I am recurring to Magick, because it's my last option. I don't think otherwise I'd use magick for something of this matter, certain things should be acheived naturally, but if magick is what caused my misfortune and brought about this outcome, magick will reverse it too.

[akimbomoss]

He knows a bit Spanish, but I am the Spanish one to begin with. when we speak he likes saying ''Hola!'' instead of hi.

I think you'll be successful. Please be careful and don't pick at it. Set your intent without forcing it and he should come to you.