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[yay] [yay] Hi everyone, I'm new here. I have a very big problem and I don't know where else to go for advice. I'm in my late thirties and when I was 17 I had gone away to college and stayed in a dorm. While I was there something attached itself to me and it has followed me for 20 years. This is a really long story, I will try to shorten it as much as I can. I started looking into the occult when I was in my late twenties, partially to look into getting rid of this thing. I've had other things around me as well, though he seems to get rid of them pretty quickly. I became interested in left hand path and particularly Setianism and met a guy and started a relationship. He believed he was invoking Set, but it was this entity claiming to be Set. It changed him and made him angry and violent. I got pregnant and got away from him and didn't have a relationship for 6 years. I started one online and the exact same thing happened, only this guy wasn't into magick he only meditated. Every time he talks to me he gets angry again and becomes this huge asshole. Now he's scared. So I am trying to find a way to get rid of it. Simple banishings do nothing, so I'm planning on doing a smudging. Can anyone give me any advice? He's also in my head, he can nod my head. Most of what I know of the occult I learned from this entity and my ex bf, so I don't trust it. I would appreciate ANY help you can give me, I also have an autistic child that I don't know how much of her problems are from him. We need rid of it. Thank you all in advance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of disociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age. ~ H.P. Lovecraft

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Forget everything else for a minute: both of the guys were nice when you met them and then changed into assholes once you were in some sort of a relationship, and both of them blame this on something else than themselves?

Sounds like you attracted two similar psychopathic types.

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Sorry I tried to summarize as much as possible. These things have been with me for a long time, I knew they were there long before I met anyone. I feel them around me, they touch me. The first bf was very into magick and drugs and I didn't think much about him flipping out except that he had never been violent with anyone except me. He tried to break my arm, threw me up against a wall while I was pregnant, a lot of stuff. The second one knew nothing of any of this. However, while we were on the phone something started trying to talk to us...we heard a male voice. So he decided to meditate on me and saw all kinds of shit. He was completely freaked out. He had never experienced anything like it. There is at least one cold energy and one very hot energy. The hot one started talking through him, he knew how long I had slept, what I was feeling, all kinds of stuff. It told him it was him, like his higher self...exactly what it told my ex. It was almost the exact same experience, and he was saying exactly (sometimes word for word) what my ex bf used to say. As he accepted it he began meditating constantly, and he became so angry. It went on for months. Then something clicked and he pushed it away. He was afraid to talk to me at first, but did about a week later. He was like had been in the beginning, sweet, not mean at all. Then he said he couldn't talk to me as often because the more he talked to me the more the anger came back, and he starts getting mean. This was just through text, he stopped talking to me on the phone awhile ago. Luckily this one is a long distance relationship, so he couldn't get physically violent. I understand it's hard to believe if you haven't experienced it.
We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of disociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age. ~ H.P. Lovecraft

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I have experienced this, I have no name for them except Shades.
I killed one in my school, had to use three friends as channels and an improvised field spell to take it down.

It feeds on negative energy and manipulate people on a really subtle level.
Hatred and fear release a lot of emotional energy which makes them stronger, they manipulate events and may even manifest as dark shadows to scare you.

There are two choices as I can see, as it was a huge pain to kill because how drained I was, and I take pride in my mysticism.

First, ignore it, which will make you less useful for it because you are no longer pumping it with energy, it will move on.
However, it will do anything, ANYTHING, in its power to make you fall prey to it again.

Second, kill it with fire, ask a couple of mystics to purge it.
I recommend energy draining spells, attacks against it may be ineffective due to its vampiric nature.

These are only my two copper coins as a Scion mystic. [smile]

I hope you get free from the bastard soon, they are truly, truly annoying.


Within Scion, Shades are seen as agents for Miasma.
So of course, I have spent time recalling as much as possible about them.
They are patient, can ride on a prey for years before the first signs of its existence.
They are highly intelligent, good manipulators and usually attack your mind by making you think about things that scare you.
They have the ability to make a partial physical manifestation and are believed to be what people call "ghosts" and "poltergeists".

In one way, they are to Scion what black holes are for scientists, breaking the laws put out.
Within Scion, the astral plane should not be able to alter the physical plane...Shades seem ignore that rule.

While they can not do things like hurting you physically directly or killing you, the situation can get out of hand if the Shade is not contained and terminated...with great prejudice.

If nothing else works, PM me with a picture of yourself and I will help you. [thumbup]
EDIT: Noticed how stupid that sounded, I want the picture for aiming purpose...
I need a stable focus to actually direct the energy.
"On Earth as in heaven" - Scion adopted proverb.
"Strife and Glory" - Fifth Mantra of the Scion Creed.

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Thank you so much for your help!!! I will try what you have suggested. I don't think I will be able to have a relationship until I get rid of it. It doesn't effect me like it does everyone else for some reason, it doesn't make me angry. I really really appreciate the help!!! [grin]
We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of disociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age. ~ H.P. Lovecraft

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