Imaginary friends and manifestation

[Cybernetic_Jazz]

One of my main sources of run ins with entities had to do with the consequences of being in a spot in my life, not long after bouncing out of my atheist/agnostic setting, where I realized what kinds of results I could get in my life by turning inward. As a child I had a rich fantasy life, enough imaginary friends to draw psychologists like flies, and while I'd really in a lot of ways avoided that I decided to really look at it from an adult psychological perspective and actually see what I could get out of it from a productive standpoint.

What I learned is that if you have an entity that you talk to and have very warm shared feelings, even if it's purely you dialoguing and trying to attribute identity to this entity, that eventually it's presence starts triggering energies. I tended toward female entities partly from being single thus it filled an edification angle but also because I noticed that being held recharged me, it was like being able to put myself on a charger when my battery was on one bar and maybe get myself back up to two or three. The more I did that and the more they seemed to become grinning flirts the more I started feeling strange movements of energy through me whether in my abdominal region, in my back, etc.. Trying to seek out an understanding of this lead me to the kundalini awakening that I described somewhere else.

I did have a particular side effect that I didn't want with respect to my first image - she ended up showing up in my life, in the physical, as in the original did morph into taking on characteristics that I hadn't originally given her and eventually a lady joins a class I'm in whose 20 years older than me (I'm in my early 30's and my image was likely mid to late 20's) but in personality, mannerisms, etc. is pretty close to dead-ringer. While she's not particularly an astral projection or eastern mystery person the lady in my class says a lot of things about constant recurring dreams in such a way that I get the impression that another layer of her past this one is active in the extreme (as in yes - I at least hypothesize that such an inner aspect of her saw me, saw what was essentially my dialoguing mirror, said "Hey you!", and may have stood in for her). The first time I shook hands with her I had a very strange zap of energy go through my hand as well which was a similar zap to what I felt when I examined my first Rider-Waite deck at a book store before buying it. I don't know what that was and neither of us were wearing parkas or dragging our heals on carpet, it was actually a pretty humid summer day.


I suppose what I'm really trying to sort out - is there a definite consistency, with what I mentioned above, in terms of what kinds of entities like that type of interaction? Is there a way to tell whether you're drawing an astral shell vs. an element being vs. a lower astral vs. a higher self or self-fragment of someone else already incarnate?

Here's an additional reason I ask. As of right now I'm thinking about starting it again - completely different image (one chosen for very key and specific reasons) and this time I'm looking at the possibility of defining the situation by three parameters: 1) looking for a mystic/esoteric partner to live 'the life' with where, in a perfect world, we end up going into adept-hood together and tweaking our marriage deliberately for that 2) telling myself in the eternal now moment that she is already my wife, that we have a full life together, and that my very desire to put an RFP out to heaven for a well-matched esoteric partner is very friendly to the Great Work and hence in an odd way I think I'm making a request but already foreshadowing a soul contract or at least enforcing myself in the dimension that it comes to fruition in and 3) imaging an aetheric/astral wedding ring on my finger to focus on. I'd also picture her higher self, through my higher self, constantly grooming my energies to meet her physical self and vice a verse.

In this later case I'm wondering if there are any major rules I'd be missing or, lol, the great astral substance being a bit tricky, whether there are any additional angles I'd need to think of so that it doesn't turn out like an Elizabeth Hurley 'Bedazzled' wish. Even at that I trust Aether Harmony FAR more than I trust EHarmony (dates on the second were about as much fun as getting my teeth drilled or going to court for a traffic violation), just that I want to make sure I'm using Aether Harmony or Astral-Match.com correctly.

Also, if you have an imaginary friend that you sort of draw into being strictly for work - is there a way you can keep them from showing up in your physical life? That first case was something I specifically didn't want to have happen and even before that happened I saw some foreshadowing that it was headed in that direction.

[NariusV]

Choose a dialogue partner with some non-human qualities that would preclude you ever meeting them as a human. Another method, create the being yourself. This may take a lot more work than initiating a relationship with an extant being.

[RoseRed]

That sounds an awful lot like a past life experience. Especially with her showing up in your life. Are you absolutely certain that you imagined and created it? Is there the possibility that you remembered it and didn't even realize that?

So, what are you going to do now that you've found her and she's 20 years older than you? Create a new one that's closer to your own age?

Like you, when I was a child I had a very rich imagination. It turned out that my 'imaginary' friends were actually ghosts and not my imagination. That's a story for another day.

[Cybernetic_Jazz]

That sounds an awful lot like a past life experience. Especially with her showing up in your life. Are you absolutely certain that you imagined and created it? Is there the possibility that you remembered it and didn't even realize that?

The experience of having the imaginary friend came and developed in such a manner that I suppose I probably never would have thought of that as an in or out of my situation. I think that's what gets me thinking that I made this happen somewhat in real time or in the quite high likelihood that 95% of life is predetermined this was on my incarnational life chart and I was predestined to model my imaginary friend after one of my favorite female dj/producers and this lady just happens to look a lot like the particular woman I modeled my imaginary friend off of but just 25 years older than her. Thus the sensation that I made it happen in realtime might simply be a trick of rigged circumstances. Occasionally I find myself wondering if she's a closet Hermeticist and just doesn't talk about it - tend to shrug that of when it crosses my mind though because there's really no way to test it without making quite an awkward "Whewhewhah?" kind of moment - even if I was correct.

On a side story, in my class, while my instructor is great at what he does and is pretty down to earth in his instructing lets just say that there have been politics, he has been unhappily married for a long time, and I've been getting the impression that if she's ever awkward around me it's less that she knows something about what happened with me (her higher self might but I doubt she does) but rather that she might think I'm judging her. This has happened before - it wouldn't be the first time, it probably wouldn't be the last. Her husband had been in the class when she first started but dropped off, last time we were all talking I remember asking her how he was doing and that question seemed to completely change the tone of the room and she just went into a rather canned/robotic sales pitch for his business. That and seeing her staying waay after class sent me the memo. I could be wrong but I think most people would come to the same conclusion considering.

So, what are you going to do now that you've found her and she's 20 years older than you? Create a new one that's closer to your own age?

Lol, nothing! I didn't want my imaginary friend to show up in my life and I'm pretty sure what I got was someone who simply - at a subconscious self level - decided to replace her bit by bit (or, back to the other thesis - someone I contracted with to be asking these questions). To the extent that someone who looks and vibes that much like her did show up I had to close that connection - ie. it gets creepy because you can't stop cross-fading the real life likeness in. At this point I'm just glad she found a martial arts system she likes (if I at least did that I'm happy that some good came of it). I just hope she doesn't get herself into too much trouble with what she's doing on the side.

Like you, when I was a child I had a very rich imagination. It turned out that my 'imaginary' friends were actually ghosts and not my imagination. That's a story for another day.

The more I find out about Hermeticism the more I found out that there's really no such thing as 'just your imagination' - ie. the mental plane coincides with interior realities and those realities, I might be coining a term rather loosely or clumsily here but I don't have a proper term ready for it, is trans-subjective - ie. it's shared but it has core sort of data-geometric realities that transcend the subjective and hence all things that manifest a material world facade most likely are in touch and aware of the thoughts of one another going on in that pool even if it's higher self, subconscious, etc. of the people, the animal archetypes, if chairs and coffee cups have archetypal subconscious or superconscious I don't know but that seems to be the gist - that all is in all.

My biggest priority is trying to figure out if there are less obvious ethical questions at play here, ie. I understand now a lot more about so much of what Christ said about being judged for our thoughts and how thinking vengefully or lustfully about a neighbor (fellow human in general) generates a reality even if it's never physically acted out. While I don't necessarily believe in the old testament or apocalyptic doom-and-gloom I can't help but consider that there are things I can do, even with good intent, that have consequences I don't understand (like my story above) and I really want to work with the divine masculine and feminine (in my cosmology Christ and the Isis of 10,000 names). While I don't believe there's a hell for times where I might have either of them looking at me a bit askance over my actions I know that if they look at me askance my life will also be askance due to the manifestation of my own actions (ie. the undeviating justice of Geburah). I'm really hoping that Christ and Isis can help me on that and particular for a growing relationship with Ma'at to keep me as close to the center-mark as possible.

[RoseRed]

I don't know that 95% if life is pre-ordained. I'm pretty sure that some things are - regardless of which path we take to get there.

Ethical questions? Oh, yeah. There's tons of those. Know thyself. Know your moral code. Live by it. Questions of ethics tend to fall by the wayside when you walk in your Truth. It's an Integrity thing.

We can never figure out all the consequences before hand. That would be like knowing which grains of sand will be disturbed every time a ripple or a waves touches the beach.