I'm Ced, from Belgium, living in Japan.
I'm a holistic healer and have stumbled upon chaos magick a few months ago.
Last week, I took a day off to sit down and do whole day of Chaos Magick customisation to my own needs,
But shockingly, I found myself blocked, intellectually paralyzed all day, and would just zone out into daydreaming loops, or get distracted by whatever entered my awareness.
I'm a gemini (31/5/78) and I have recently been convinced I have some degree of adult form of ADD, and so often I would start something (I'm not that interested in) and would feel the procrastination and resistance build in slowly. But this time was different: it totally disarmed my brain for over 7 hours.
Have you guys ever had that level of block, and if yes is it an ego-afraid-of-change thing, or something else?
I thought my ego and I were pretty much on the same wavelength these days, but I guess never say never(more).
I have zero background in Magic(k), and my fields are more chikung, chakra stuff and generally asian/newage modalities.
I got interested in Chaos Magick because of concepts like hypersigils and the idea that I can use my ipad to add multiple layers of personalisation to my glyphs.
A friend suggested me to work with Jophiel and Chesed, which I've been doing, but I was wondering whether you guy would be advising ramming through the issue, or letting it flow at its own pace.
Anyhow,
A good week to all
