Bringing the spark of life back into life - Need Advice

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Original post: ChaosTech

I go through periods where I get depressed. It's not a traditional type of depression, but a depression where I just feel astrally and physically tired and bored. Sometimes this will only last a few hours and other times it can last for day or even weeks. I try to do things, to change my attitude, and get myself doing something, but usually have little to no success. The reason I am even posting this though, is to ask you fellow magicians, for any rituals and or techniques you know of to not just help "get my arse in gear", but raise my energy levels so that I actually I feel like "getting my arse in gear." I absolutely hate feeling like this. Sometimes I can change this feeling by watching an emotionally inspiring movie, or reading a book that does the same, but this is very time consuming and not practical at all. Feeling tired, and or bored, and or broken, makes me feel like I'm dead not alive.

Any input is appreciated,
Thanks.

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Original post: I AM

Hey my friend!

While what you are experiencing is normal, at least the lack of motivation for Magick, there are things that you can do to change this.

Many months ago I posted a Ritual that I called a Grounding Ritual that involved the Sun and Earth. It is also terrific for energy building. I reprint it here again for you and I hope it proves valuable for you.

Humbly, I AM

Solar Grounding Ritual

Visualize yourself as growing very large...huge. Grow until you can put one foot on the Sun and the other on the Earth. Size DOES matter! If you can see yourself bigger than the Galaxies that is even better. See yourself in the darkness of space with your feet on the two worlds.

Draw up power from the Sun into yourself and re-direct it into the Earth. Just make certain one foot (I have always put the Right foot on the Sun) is firmly planted on the Sun and the other foot is firmly planted on the Earth. You need to feel the power rising up from the Sun into your body, feel your body being infused by this energy, and then feel the power flow down the other leg into the Earth.

Do this continuously for about 15 minutes. At the end of the 15 minutes, shut off the flow to the Earth while still drawing the power from the Sun. Continue this for about 1 minute. At the end of this exercise see yourself shrink down to your normal size.

Do this exercise two to three times a day for the next week. This exercise should make an immediate difference in your available energy and should also ground you. I will not tell you WHAT you will feel however I guarantee you that you WILL feel the energy within you and passing through you.

Many are unable to do this exercise for a full 15 minutes when starting. If you are doing it properly you may need to do it for shorter periods initially. Additionally, to call this exercise a â??Groundingâ?Â

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Original post: philalethes

[QUOTE=ChaosTech] ... The reason I am even posting this though, is to ask you fellow magicians, for any rituals and or techniques you know of to not just help "get my arse in gear", but raise my energy levels so that I actually I feel like "getting my arse in gear." ... [/QUOTE]
I recommend developing a simple daily routine of magical practice in addition to your mundane routine. For example, the performance of solar adorations, The Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, The Middle Pillar Exercise, and an adoration of your patron deity. If you perform these practices daily, they will help to carry you through your "dryness". The LBRP will place you within a consecrated temple space; the Middle Pillar exercise will provide you with the much needed energy drawn from a boundless supply; the solar adorations will draw your mind back to the Great Work at regular intervals throughout the day; and the adoration of your patron deity will assist you in raising your consciousness to the apprehension of divinity in genuine love and devotion. If you find yourself placid and immobile, don't be afraid to ask for divine assistance in overcomming your inertia. Just be sure that your heart is in the right place.

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Original post: ChaosTech

Thank you both for the helpful posts.

Also I AM, that ritual is brilliant (no pun intended )!

The sun being a symbol for spirit, i.e. Keter.
Earth of course being my everyday life, i.e. Malkuth.
Me being giant to symbolise my inner divinity and power.
And of course the reason for pulling energy from Sol into me, is to charge myself in the now, and bringing it into Gaia to charge my everyday life. Charge with spirit that is ("to go").

Thanks so much friend. I imagine the results of it will be very interesting indeed.


As a reccomendation, instead of calling it a "Solar Grounding Ritual," how about 'The Solar Power Ritual," "The Alchemical Ritual of Daily Charging," or even "The Ritual of Daily Integration of the Higher Self?"

Anyway just some ideas, as I can understand why "grounding" isn't a good word for it.


As far as your suggestions go Philalethes, I appreciate them very much. The LBRP is too time consuming for me to perform every day though. As far as the MPE, well....good idea.
Although the deity suggstion is indeed a great idea and highly effective, I have tried this before and I'm just too dynamic (read: Chaotic :lol:), to commit myself to any one power, including Chaotic deities. Not to mention I'm at a point in my life where I'm trying to develop alot of personal power (egotistical I suppose, but needed, like self confidence, faith in myself, etc) that I have had way to little of all my life. Deific Magick makes me feel dependant, which is what I have been all my life on people especially, and in order to further my not only magickal but mundane and possibly spiritual as well life, all need all the skills I can to develop as much independance as I can. Nevertheless though, thanks again.

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Original post: fatbastard

And now for the obligatory oracular reply of this thread:

discover a place you have forgotten its existance.
Go there carrying a cup. A corked bottle may be used as well.

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Original post: ChaosTech

Fatbastard, is this a mental (astral) place, or a physical place?

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Original post: fatbastard

I did not expect that question from a chaote. Shame on you! :lol:
Both of course!

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Original post: DeviouZ

I find daily practice gets me through everything... even on days when I really don't feel like doing it, I force it and after I come out I feel like a changed man, wondering why I ever felt like I did before that... on the other hand, it seems theres also a kind of dependency, if I don't do the practice then I get more vulnerable to downers... the LBRP isn't really that time-consuming in my opinion, I've got it down to about 6 or 7 minutes to perform it. The only times I don't perform it is when I feel like there's some kind of change coming through that's getting in the way, and I just need to get through it... everyone has those I guess.

I find a good little trick in the everyday is that when you're depressed, grab hold of your thought or action and reverse it. It sounds simple, but it works so well, and makes you realise how malleable your moods and thoughts really are. Either that or just give yourself a quick burst of energy from the environment or something to get you impetus out of the rut you might be in...

I can understand what you might mean from being a Chaote and wanting to be independent from any idea of a 'deity'... I mean, that might work for you, but for me it's different I think... personally, I think sometimes a monotheistic idea of a deity is one and the same with Chaos, devoting yourself to some 'Universal Light' isn't really restrictive at all, it's whole encompassing in my opinion, but is still an idea to which you can revere yourself to... the way it's manifested in my life for me in regards to self-confidence is I've come out of dependency in a strange way through being dependent on an absolute idea of Deity, that it's helped me see through the illusions of the dependency and destructive connections I had towards others, towards other ideas and behaviours etc etc, and developed more faith in myself... even though some people might think I've merely replaced one dependency for another...

Hope that helps you see from my perspective... to me, if you wanna see things in a Chaotic way, it's a matter of developing the 'schema', the 'paradigm' to reflect more truth and less illusion that leads to bringing the 'spark into life'... I don't think it needs to be egoistic at all. But obviously, that's just my view wouldn't necessarily work for you I guess.

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Original post: Lucid

You said that you can sometimes change this feeling with an inspiring book or movie. This may be a little simplified, and short-term, but do you have a favorite inspirational poem or photo that you can carry with you when you need a little lift?

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Original post: ChaosTech

That's a great idea Lucid. Infact I was thinking of the same thing today after posting this, of getting a sigilised tatoo containing things I have enjoyed sense I can remember. These being no flickle likes of mine, and so deeply engrained in my psyche, would be great. I suppose if somehow I stoped getting pleasure from these things via internal work or something, I could always have the tatoo removed as we live in the age of laser surgery, thankfully.


Also Deviouz, I kind of do the same as you. Instead of a concept of a God though I see Infinity as being a similar concept. I see powers in raw symbolic form instead of anthropmorhised mythic form (deities) and have been doing magick this way successfully for a while now. It's just more comfortable as well as practical for me to imagine a plane of pure love energy and invoke or evoke it, than call on a deity like say Aphrodite. Why see powers as being something representing independace and seperation from oneself, when I am Infinity and are really everything, not just a single human being.

So when I work with "energy" I see it as both within (microcosm) and without (macrocosm), as I know the seperation of the two is illusion. It also successfully strips away any sense of superiority and inferiority, and helps me be compassionate towards all life, not to mention give me a perfect reason why I want to tread on my path carefully, as to harm another is to harm myself.

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Original post: Lucid

Cool idea on the tatoo, but have you considered henna instead of the more permanent route. It wears off, so as your life changes, your sigil could change, or grow, to reflect that. Check out the top lefthand picture on this page. I like the looks of that.

http://mehndiskinart.com/henna-artical.htm

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Original post: ChaosTech

I did not expect that question from a chaote. Shame on you!
Both of course!

You mean you actually expected something from a Chaote? That was your first mistake. :lol:

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Original post: Ludi

Sing.

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Original post: fatbastard

You mean you actually expected something from a Chaote? That was your first mistake.

You mean besides the usual and tattered pseudo-science quantum ramblings along with the holy trinity of Fnord/Hail Eris!/Nothing is True Everything is permitted?
Of course not :p

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Original post: Horus

One thing that I did the other day that absolutely put the spark back into life during a bad day, was go outside and simply be aware... aware of the sight coming to my eyes, the sound coming to my ears, the feelings in my body... and for a split second I realized what a miracle this was... this awareness. I WAS AWARE. I felt as I were glowing all day long, and haven't really been too depressed since.

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Original post: Spes

There's energy all around us, it's all about energy in fact.
I draw energy when I need from sun, wind/rainstorm, trees and by just being aware as Horus described. I take a walk by lakeshore or in forest and can go on again.

I suspect we can create energy out of other than earthly sources aswell, call them energies from cosmic- or selfsource. Atleast I have been able to get some from such sources.
Certain music helps me too while other can have opposite results.

Ofcourse as long as I did not realise what draws my energy and how can I draw it back, I was in serious trouble. And worst thing is to come across energy-vampires ofcourse. There are plenty of them out there.