Greetings!

[Sheila]

Greetings to All!

Hi, I'm Sheila and I'm 35 years old. I am a nurse, and work at a Elderly Home Center, Rehab section. This wasn't what my ambitions where as I grew up to become, I always saw myself as a lawyer, at least what I desired to do was to become a prosecuter. Life had different plans for me obviously and I ended as a Nurse. If you'd ask me today what I'd chose to become if given the chance to change things, I'd still go for a Nurse. Being a nurse has changed me as a person and it has been an interesting jurney so far. Gaining knowledge of the human body as well as mind has been an amazing exploration, and everyday something new takes place and it is astunishing what everyday brings and the expiriences it grants me. Death has also become something that often surrounds me, but not surprising one would say considering the path of work that i have chosen to lead.

As a child while growing up, I was scared of death and anything regardign the subject. I had the gift to see spirits since before I could even walk, not that I remember what I saw before I could walk, but it is something I am told by the elders in my family. Seeing unnatural phenomena was something that took place constantly, and it became very unberable on the long term of life. All the sighting pushed me into trying to find other similar to me and I went into studing religions and spiritual paths just so that I would gain an understanding into why I could see what I saw. Anyways to make a long story short, I realized I couldnt get rid of this gift of mine and started accepting it, by doing so a new world opened up and I realized it was possible to comunicate with creatures and exsistances that most would consider to be fantasy or nonsense, yet it is very much reality if you chose to be openminded enough to take the chance to let your surroundings show their true appearance. There are worlds of amazment aroudn us, enteties and wonders that I'd call a beauty of exsistance no matter if another choses to call it uglyness or madness, still it is all creation of awe. I learned to co-operate with different enteties and creatures, and I thank them for all the knowledge I have been granted and the wisdome that continues flowing. I don't follow any particular path nor religion, as all is one and the same in its origin, we only chose to see and obtain the understanding differently, still in the end everything is linked.

As a person I am an observer and empath by nature, I tend to enjoy quietness and just listen to the whispers of the silance in the surrounding, it is amazing what you can see, hear and feel if you only take the chance to be still.
I can be a very strick person and harsh if unjust takes place, and I don't forgive easy or forget. I tend to laugh a lot, and see most things to be quite interesting and funny.

Well, that's all from me now, anything else you wonder do feel free to ask

[Rin]

Welcome to OF

[Nahemah]

Hello and welcome to the forum. [grin]

[ResearchyMcCuriouspants]

It must be interesting to see supernatural things. Are you open about this with others or do you often tend to keep it hush hush until you can anticipate their reaction? Or, perhaps, can you anticipate what their reaction is going to be with your ability? [crazy]

[Sheila]

It must be interesting to see supernatural things. Are you open about this with others or do you often tend to keep it hush hush until you can anticipate their reaction? Or, perhaps, can you anticipate what their reaction is going to be with your ability? [crazy]

Hi dear,
Yes, it has become interesting, but I can recall years when it wasn't, when I was constantly afreid of what would show up next. As a child I was often misunderstood by grown ups and it would lead to punishment if I said anything, especially if I ended running around crying of what was in the room, or what was sitting next to me, watching, or what I'd see outside the windows or simply wherever I would go. I ended attached to my mom, she was the only one trying to protect me from peoples cruelty. It was Lonely growing up not only fearing stuf around me I'd see next, but also peoples reactions around me. Mom told me to be quiet and try to endure cause dad would always end angry and I'd end getting beaten up, which often happend. I started hiding in a sort of closet that we had in our livingroom which also was used as a bedroom for me and my siblings. The uper half of the closet was glass and had stuf like glasses etc in it, the Down part had wooden sliding doors, and when ever I'd see or Even sense something I'd hide and close myself in there, I'd crawl inside into a corner and wait. Its a long story anyway...

But I learned to keep quiet and still am the same, people just don't accept others that may be different. I don't talk to anyone in my surrounding, though it does happend sometimes when mom comes asking me if I'd see anything lately and so on...but I never bring it up myself, I don't trust people, they are too judgmental and misunderstand easy not willing to accept what their eyes can't see. I sense peoples reactions yes, and because of that I keep myself distant to everyone, this side of me almost non know, Even the man I married doesn't accept it, HE is just too scared and forbids talking of anything of the sort. My few friends are the same and Even my siblings, but you I am used to it by now. Do I Get or feel Lonely because of it? Yes of course I do, who wouldn't....

[Penelope]

Hi Sheila,

Welcome to OF, hopefully you can find a bit of common ground with people here and maybe feel a bit less lonely with your gifts. It must be pretty rotten having nobody to chat and joke about it with sometimes. I look forward to reading your posts [happyface]

[Rin]

Even the man I married doesn't accept it, HE is just too scared and forbids talking of anything of the sort.

That's horrible, don't take this as criticism, but the one person you should be able to expect trust and support and acceptance from is your partner. I guess fear of the unknown does funny things.