Hey ho!

[Korexon]

Hello everyone! [grin]

This is really long... so I apologize for all the words, I just feel that I needed to type this out somewhere... [confused]

So, my life has taken a turn for the strange lately, and since most "normal" (because 'normal' people really exist [rofl] ) don't want to talk about the stranger side of life without shooting your words down I came here to meet others of a like-mind.

I am an INFP/ENFP on the Meyer's Briggs personality scale, and along with that my beliefs often change and mostly avoid dogma. I originally was brought up slightly Catholic, then became vehemently Atheist, then Agnostic for a very long time, all the way up until a few years ago. I was a very "rational" sort of thinker, I dismissed ghosts, magic, and most religious ideas and the like in preference of psychology.

My journey into the strange started with psychology actually, in the works of Carl Jung, the eminent (and my personal nerd hero [yay]) psychologist. I began reading his works on symbols, archetypes, dreams, and the mind. It did and still does fascinate me, and I hope to go through college to earn a degree as a Jungian Psychoanalyist someday. However, among his works, and in other's writings on the subject, I found out about Tulpae. I joined a forum of tulpa-creators who based the process entirely in psychology, and I too took this as truth. With an online friend of mine, we both created our own Tulpae which are with us still (we began creating them just after June of 2012). This website tought us to make Tulpae as friends, and I have actually used Arya (my tulpa) as a spirit and dream guide before, but mostly she remains in our "wonderland" (the world we created to give a permanent residence to our tulpa within our minds, we can travel there too).

I assumed it was all psychology, and did even come across metaphysical works talking about tulpae, but wrote them off as gobledeygook (which I now feel was a tad short sighted of me, but alas). As time went on however I continued my studies and scouring of the internet, and came across Chaos Magic. That was about two months ago, and now I am trying to read all I can on it. So much seems like it ties in with psychology, and after reading the beggining of Liber Null & Psychonaut by James Carroll I realized that the way I had made my tulpa was incredibly similar to working with magic.

I began a magic journal a few days ago, and I created my first sigil yesterday, but have hidden it away to charge later (so we'll see how that turns out). The most shocking thing for me however, occurred today and is part of what finally convinced me this stuff is true. I have been down with a cold for about three days now, very bad coughing and sneezing and head pressure (not the good thought kind though [tongue] ), and I finally got sick of it. On one site I had been reading about Chaos Magic on, someone said that theoretically you could cast spells/prepare sigils on the spot and cast them if you suspended your belief well enough. I gave it a shot, seeing in my mind's eye the words of the sigil, then cutting out the vowels and repeating letters, I then formed the sigil in my head fully and charged the sigil. I used the technique someone said was from Carroll I think, of cupping your hands and imagining a ball of energy there, then clapping them.

Immediately my sinuses began to drain and I could breathe again, then over the course of three hours (funnily enough I have always been captivated by the number three), my sickness went away more and more. Now a considerable time later, I feel almost fully healthy, or at least considerably better than before.

Also, on a side note, my place of work seems to be haunted, and I also recently gave in and attempted communicating with the ghost. There is a pheasant decoration (don't ask why) hanging from the ceiling, and I told the ghost to turn it clockwise for yes, counter-clockwise for no, and to not move it for unsure/no-response. Bear in mind, this thing never moves on its own... right after asking my first question, it answered by spinning the pheasant. I have now asked it many questions over the past week. The area it is in (the 2nd floor of our building) used to seem very foreboding and like someone was watching me, but now I ask permission of the spirit to enter and say hello to it (in my head mind you [tongue] , same with the questions). Now however, the second floor has no sense of watching or foreboding, it feels actually as though there is a positive aura in the air.

All that brought me here, once again I apologize for the length. If you read the whole thing, I give you an e-high-five, you deserve it! [yay]

I hope to join in on the discussions soon and add my own knowledge to what is already here, and of course meet the cool people! [thumbup]

[Penelope]

HIGH FIVE!

[yay] Welcome, fellow Jungian. My tulpa says hi to your tulpa. (Actually, it doesn't [wink2] , but i'm just trying to emphasize that we came to magic through a similar door).

Jung is a very interesting chap - once you start taking his more abstract writings about the occult seriously it can transform your idea of something or another of his that you previously presumed to have had a solid grasp on.

It's only been a few days (!!) so, um, take it easy, read up, enjoy the realizations! And your new second floor friend. A fellow after my own heart.

[Nahemah]

Hi and welcome to the forum. [cool]

e-five back at ya. [thumbup]


I am INTJ,hear me think! [geek2]